Happy birthday to my very special child, Baby Yvan

April 12, 2013,

To my bunso,

12 months had passed, there was a little boy who happen to change our whole life. Born on April 12, 2012, 10 P.M. I was never aware of what was happening when I gave birth to this little boy. All I know is, I was able to bring you outside this world. Yes, it was very painful than my previous pregnancy because we notice even if you are ready to come out and yet there’s something bothers me. And I did not sleep for 24 hours after my delivery thinking of you anak. Daddy called me, you are about to die because you were born prematurely and you have neonatal pneumonia with sepsis, after doing so many tests, infections were beginning to go inside your body. I felt dying and even if the doctor did not allow me to go because I need to rest, I insist. When we finally reach PCGH-ICU, I saw you with so many tube, from head to toe and you’re in so much pain. I never stop crying. Almost dying.

I can still remember June 11, when we decided to bring you home. Doctor said, you are not allowed to yet because of your critical condition. All those time, we always listen to what they are saying. Until this day, we want to spent the rest of our life taking care of you and be with you because you are close to death. I am afraid of losing of you anak. So afraid.

And now God has given you such a wonderful gift on your birthday, being alive and getting well as days goes by. I thought dealing with your situation is the most painful, but what mommy and daddy realized, it will be more painful if we will not see you alive.

Gusto ko lang din sabihin sayo anak, I am sorry. Kailangan mo itong pagdaaanan. Kung pwede ko lang ibigay ang buhay ko para hindi kana nahirapan. Gagawin ko. Sana mapatawad mo ako kung meron man akong hindi naibigay saýo, kung nakakatulog ako pagbabantay sayo, kung nasama loob ni mommy kina ate at kuya. Lahat gagawin ko para sayo anak, kasama si daddy. 
 Mas importante ka kesa sa kahit na anong bagay. Wala kaming hindi gagawin. Mahal na mahal ka namin anak. Ako sobrang hindi kita kayang mawala. Sabi ko nga sa kanila, ako susunod na mawawala pag binitawan mo lahat. 
Mahal na mahal ka rin anak ni Papa Jesus, hindi niya tayo iniwan sa lahat ng laban. Hindi kailanman kami susuko anak. 
Alam kong ikaw ang magaalaga samin ni daddy pag tanda. Always be strong and you always give strength to us. Love ka ni ate at ni kuya. Sana pagdating ng tamang panahon, mabasa mo ito, para malaman mo gaano kita kamahal. Hindi ko kakayanin na iwan mo ako anak. 
Happy birthday anak. Alam kong unti unti natatanggap mo na ng ganap ang regalo mo kay Lord. 
Marami ka pang birthday na pagsasamahan natin anak. Promise mo yan.

Worried about Primary Complex?

Sadly to share my daughter was diagnosed to have Basal Pneumonia and possibility of Primary TB infection or they may call it primary complex for children dated September 19, 2012. She was exactly 2 years old.  I was scared to see the Xray result but I did not let my daughter see how worried I am. Somewhat emotional because she was very healthy and she never get hospitalized since birth. Panic? Yes I am. Good thing I was able to bring her to our Pediatrician and was advised for a PPD test.
Symptoms of Primary Complex:
– Weight loss
– Repeated cough without fever
– Loss of appetite
She was given 6 months of medication. Our Pediatrician prescribed KIDZ KIT 3, a product from Natrapharm.
Each pack of Kidz Kit 3 contains:
2 – 120mL bottles of Zcure 250mg per 5mL suspension
1 – 120mL bottle of Natricin Forte 200mg per 5mL suspension
1 – 120mL bottle of Curazid Forte 200mg/10 mg per 5mL syrup
Each 5mL of Zcure suspension contains 250mg pyrazinamide
Each 5mL of Natricin Forte suspension contains 200mg rifampicin
Each 5mL of Curazid forte syrup contains 200mg isoniazid and 10mg pyridoxine hydrochloride (Vitamin B6)
For the treatment of pulmonary and extrapulmonary tuberculosis.
For more information: Please read the adverse effects and precautions taking this medicine.
Source: http://www.natrapharm.com/index.html
Photo credit to the owner
I could really imagine how long this could be, but I am happy to say that Diana was able to complete the 6th month medication. She even remind me that it’s time for her medicine. And after 6 months, she was tested again to check if there’s no traces of primary complex. Thank God, we did it. Thankful to my daughter that she was very cooperative at her age. (She is 2 years old then)
Things to consider: 
♥ It’s very important not to break the medication even one dose per day because according to our Pediatrician you will need to start over again.
♥ It should be taken with an empty stomach.
♥ Urine color will definitely change but not to worry this is just because of the Natricin.
♥ Your child will recover just complete the medication.
♥ Give vitamins at the same time so it can boost your child’s health.
♥ Let your child take a lot of rest and liquid.
♥ Try to avoid places where your child can be expose to other illnesses.
♥ Primary complex is not contagious but it should be treated right away. What I did, I made sure my eldest gets vitamins as well (although they are given naman since birth)
♥ It’s always best to consult your doctor if you’re child was vomiting, telling painful reaction, yellow eyes and nails, fainting, and any other unusual cases in your child.
♥ Pray. pray and pray. As long as you are on the right track, your child will get well very soon.

Diana’s 2nd birthday

Never stop from loving mommy, daddy,kuya and your little brother, Yvan. Thank you for always being so sweet, naughty lang habang lumalaki. Please don’t make kuya cry always.
You are such so smart and pretty girl that daddy loves much. 
At your early age, you know how ABC’s works, numbers, you sing, you project, you talked a lot.
I know even if we did not celebrate this much, deep in our hearts, you are always be loved!
Diet ka na ate ha 🙂